Today was the hardest day to get moving in the morning. In the morning I’m nicer to my legs, even a little sympathetic to their pain, so I stretch them and message them knowing its all just an act. They won’t feel good. Not in the morning or day or at night. The consoling of sore muscles is just sad. I look at them and know what they’re about to do. What I’m about to put them through.
After training for the past couple months I knew days like this would come. In training you listen to your body, don’t overtrain, eat right, cross-train, if really necessary take a day off etc etc. I’ve found that while actually doing the event (now biking) you also listen to your body. Then you tell your body to shut up and pretend like it doesn’t hurt. Kind of pointing your finger at it and cutting it off every time it starts to whimper.
That was what today was. Pushing far past discomfort, far past pain and starting to learn a little about trying hard. I think a lot while biking because that’s all I have time for/can do.
I’ve come up with an approach/thoughts to all this
1) Pain can’t hold you back. Only the desire to not be in pain can. Accept it, deny it, turn your mind off, love it, or hate it. Whatever it takes just get over it.
2) Treat your body like a machine with an on and off switch. Then never choose the off switch.
3) Never slack off. If I find myself slowing up a hill I kick into overdrive to remind myself to work hard. Have two speeds. Fast and faster. To quote Steve Prefontaine “to give less than your best is to sacrifice the gift”. So while it’s hundreds of miles long I try to approach every mile with a sprinters mentality. Give every pedal everything I’ve got. Don’t sacrifice the gift of a healthy body and healthy mind.
4) Think about the kids. Through all this I hope the kids who get the scholarship money for camp know how much I want them to go to camp. I hope they know that this week of discomfort and pain and sweat and fighting my muscles is all for them to experience and learn about a guy that gave up His life for them. I consider it a small amount of effort to give for something so good. I hope I can give people a small glimpse, even as unrelated as it is, as to how hard I believe we should work for God and people and each other.
5) Go into every day, and every moment of every day, wondering about how everything I mentioned before incorporates with my potential. Do everything I can to tap in and discover my potential. When it’s mile 45 of the day and mile 425 overall and there is a 2.5 mile hill with a couple hundred feet of elevation to climb and you have 55 miles to go after is the moment I love. There I get to see effort. I get to see exactly what I’m made of. Then I get to try to improve on that tomorrow. I don’t think I’ll ever achieve being great or some level of excellence or anything but I love trying every day. It feels right.
6) Lastly, and most importantly, thank God. I know it sounds corny but it’s true. I spend a lot of time every day thanking God for a good set of legs. Some people are smart, some good at business, some good athletes. I think I have a lot going for me to thank God for but one is definitely legs to bike with. I consider it a gift. One that I want to give up to do good for God.
On that note it feels good to have more distance behind me than ahead. 325 miles over 3 days sure does sound nice. Can’t wait for the week of camp after!